inside out.

its been four months. four months and tonight could be it. all because of one asshole who dosent even know me. im trying. i really am. but im unraveling. at the seems at the threads at the base of all human existence. where to go from here nowhere to go from here

today.

today, i assure myself, i dont care what anyone thinks.

i said that yesterday too

over and over again i repeat in my head.

and yet i still listen to the scale

to the demons in my head.

to others opinion of me

although theyve never lived my life.

hate on top of hate, tearing down rather than building up

but eventually, perhaps there will be nothing left to destroy.

and perhaps i can start again, and make a stronger foundation,

never to be torn apart again