its been four months. four months and tonight could be it. all because of one asshole who dosent even know me. im trying. i really am. but im unraveling. at the seems at the threads at the base of all human existence. where to go from here nowhere to go from here
today, i assure myself, i dont care what anyone thinks.
i said that yesterday too
over and over again i repeat in my head.
and yet i still listen to the scale
to the demons in my head.
to others opinion of me
although theyve never lived my life.
hate on top of hate, tearing down rather than building up
but eventually, perhaps there will be nothing left to destroy.
and perhaps i can start again, and make a stronger foundation,
never to be torn apart again
life sucks. end of story. or not idk. ughhhhhhh. i need sleep. i need brain cells. i need to think. life sucks.